Greetings to all,
Today I woke up from my sleep, performed my prayer and started thinking. Yes, THINKING. Why do you think we HAVE to think and WHAT we need to think about. These were the stuffs going around my mind that time. Then I concluded:
1) First, think about who we are in the current world. What we have contributed and what differ us from the others.
The answer that my fleeting mind told me was that the current me is nothing less than a big bubble amidst an enormous ocean. I'm insignificant for all that others would care. As I think back about my life in the past, T was and still a rather eccentric person. By all means, I'd swim upstream. This is one way to prove your existence, that is to be unique. Since I was but a boy, I'd try to do things differently than others. For example, I'd even put myself in a disadvantageous position of supporting weak arguments to get in the way of others. Although, I do have restrictions in which I'll never support something that I myself disagree with all my heart especially when it concerns religious sensitivity. However, it is my nature to debate on those concerns when I feel that my own believe is challenged by others' statements.
About contributing to the world, it STILL within my plan. If Allah permit it, I will most likely further my study to an overseas university in Canada like University of Torronto or University of British Columbia. My main concern and interest is in the energy engineering and IF I have the luxury to do double major, I would try infrastructure engineering for my second scope. With the knowledge about energy, I will aim to solve the energy crisis in the world. About my current standing, I am within the perquisite for the engineering science programme in U of T. Just look forward to it, and you will see me standing in the "SUMMIT" in the next ten years to lead the world, carving history. For now, it just a DISTANT dream.
2) As I've been thinking, the plan that I currently have is a long term goal. So, what is my current goal?
For myself, it is to score an average of over 95% in the International Canadian Pre-University programme. Then I will try to further enhance my study to really achieve something significant in my life. Right now, I'm developing a computer application based on physics theories and laws to create motions and everything. Programming is exhausting mentally but the result worth it. Just keep in touch and I'll post it one of these day(but I dont think I'll finish it very soon).
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These are my parts. What about yours? Now think about yourselves and try to make yourselves ALIVE.
"A person who contribute nothing in his life to the world will be nothing to the world. As if he never existed."
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Saturday, October 30, 2010
My Will...
The First Step to Change!
To Myself:
Be careful of your impulsive nature since you do things without plans for almost everything...
Keeps up with your plans because you are very good at planning but always fails at triggering
the execution. Remember that being better than the average is not just your forte but belongs
to everyone. There are always someone better than you because you allowed them to. There is
no such thing a impossible for you. Let me remind you of yourself. There was a time when your
father told you, " Son, I believe in your ability to get things done but I have doubt for the start. You
always start too late for someone who finishes first. Know that a person like you just leave you
behind one day if you keep this up...". This word has came true since you are no longer the best
in you own world. But, there are no time for too late. You can change things for the better.
Remember your priorty, a life with no priorty is a void, meaningless. The most important thing, have
your PRAYERS to remind you and reflect yourself when you see this note.
To My Family:
I'm sorry for my actions since the past. I have posed you many problems with my
mischievious nature. By all means I love you all but never have the courage to say so.
I'm also sorry for all the lies and betrayals I ever gave you. Its true that there were
times when I purposely do all those things but that was the mistakes of my own small
ignorant existances. I beg your forgiveness.
Mak, abah, orang mintak maaf kat sini andainya orang tak sempat berjumpa mak ngan abah untuk
berbuat demikian. Along, Kak Yong, Kak Ni, Yam, Sapik, Alan, Ayubi, dan ipar-iparku, Kak Masni dan Abang Farid, orang di sini memohon banyak keampunan dan maaf. Sedikit kesal kerana keegoan dan
sifat penakut dalam diri telah menghalang orang daripada melakukan ini secara berdepan. Ini bukanlah peringatan daripada orang yang telah mati, tetapi wasiat seorang hamba Allah yang telah
mengakui maut. Mungkin 'hijrahku' ini tertalu mengejut dan sahsiahku masih cuba menerimanya, tetapi orang akan cuba sedaya upaya untuk terus melaksanakannya. Cukuplah dengan keadaan sengsara dunia masyarakat Islam kita, orang rasa orang patut membantu mereka dan mengubah diri sendiri adalah langkah pertama.
To My Acquintances (teachers and friends):
Please remind me on how I carry myself and if I do go back from my words here, throw it back straight to my face since it was my nature to not go back on my own words if possible. It was the foolish pride of the honest me. I'm sorry my teachers, I do know my behaviors was never appropriate but somewhere in my heart the was never any ill meanings for them. It was part of my learning way to ask the ridiculous questions the intrigued me. To my friends, I know that I always force my opinion on you but it was the view of my confidence and pride. I will never give away my standing, ever! But please try your best to convince my if I'm wrong since I was wrong many times when my intelligence did fail me many times. Aku minta maaf kepada cikgu2 dan rakan2.
* Di sini ingin aku ingatkan bahawa tulislah wasiat untuk dirimu kerana ia merupakan satu cara untuk mengakui maut.
*I would like to remind you that writing " A Will " is a way to acknowledge death.
Yours sincerely with humble transition,
Pioneer of Legacy
DOB 3/7/1992
Islam.
To Myself:
Be careful of your impulsive nature since you do things without plans for almost everything...
Keeps up with your plans because you are very good at planning but always fails at triggering
the execution. Remember that being better than the average is not just your forte but belongs
to everyone. There are always someone better than you because you allowed them to. There is
no such thing a impossible for you. Let me remind you of yourself. There was a time when your
father told you, " Son, I believe in your ability to get things done but I have doubt for the start. You
always start too late for someone who finishes first. Know that a person like you just leave you
behind one day if you keep this up...". This word has came true since you are no longer the best
in you own world. But, there are no time for too late. You can change things for the better.
Remember your priorty, a life with no priorty is a void, meaningless. The most important thing, have
your PRAYERS to remind you and reflect yourself when you see this note.
To My Family:
I'm sorry for my actions since the past. I have posed you many problems with my
mischievious nature. By all means I love you all but never have the courage to say so.
I'm also sorry for all the lies and betrayals I ever gave you. Its true that there were
times when I purposely do all those things but that was the mistakes of my own small
ignorant existances. I beg your forgiveness.
Mak, abah, orang mintak maaf kat sini andainya orang tak sempat berjumpa mak ngan abah untuk
berbuat demikian. Along, Kak Yong, Kak Ni, Yam, Sapik, Alan, Ayubi, dan ipar-iparku, Kak Masni dan Abang Farid, orang di sini memohon banyak keampunan dan maaf. Sedikit kesal kerana keegoan dan
sifat penakut dalam diri telah menghalang orang daripada melakukan ini secara berdepan. Ini bukanlah peringatan daripada orang yang telah mati, tetapi wasiat seorang hamba Allah yang telah
mengakui maut. Mungkin 'hijrahku' ini tertalu mengejut dan sahsiahku masih cuba menerimanya, tetapi orang akan cuba sedaya upaya untuk terus melaksanakannya. Cukuplah dengan keadaan sengsara dunia masyarakat Islam kita, orang rasa orang patut membantu mereka dan mengubah diri sendiri adalah langkah pertama.
To My Acquintances (teachers and friends):
Please remind me on how I carry myself and if I do go back from my words here, throw it back straight to my face since it was my nature to not go back on my own words if possible. It was the foolish pride of the honest me. I'm sorry my teachers, I do know my behaviors was never appropriate but somewhere in my heart the was never any ill meanings for them. It was part of my learning way to ask the ridiculous questions the intrigued me. To my friends, I know that I always force my opinion on you but it was the view of my confidence and pride. I will never give away my standing, ever! But please try your best to convince my if I'm wrong since I was wrong many times when my intelligence did fail me many times. Aku minta maaf kepada cikgu2 dan rakan2.
* Di sini ingin aku ingatkan bahawa tulislah wasiat untuk dirimu kerana ia merupakan satu cara untuk mengakui maut.
*I would like to remind you that writing " A Will " is a way to acknowledge death.
Yours sincerely with humble transition,
Pioneer of Legacy
DOB 3/7/1992
Islam.
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